In this video from this post, he suggests you try a simpler type emotion for your first tapping exercise. I chose the one that is most persistent for me...that stressed out, sharp and angry feeling I get from doing chores all day when I would rather be doing something creative...it is particularly strong when it's towards the end of the day and I've done a thousand chores and I feel as though I'm being pulled in different directions.
I followed his video a couple of days ago and I noticed a difference that first evening (I had done the tapping in the morning) and it has sort of gone up and down but with steady improvement...that is, that stress feeling just doesn't seem as strong and sometimes doesn't even come (even when I'm trying to make Mark's sandwiches and start dinner while shooing the kittens off the counter, the dogs are barking, the bed needs to be made, the dishes need to be put away and Riona is yelling from across the house because she needs me to do something for her...oh sorry...breathe, breathe, breathe.)
I went through the process in his video again this morning and this time, when I did the Gamma Point part (an exercise within the tapping process to really focus your mind on that feeling so the tapping will work better)...I realized something. The root of my anger or the sister feeling of it is Guilt. Suddenly, I felt so sad, like I was a really bad person because I hated doing all those chores for my family. If I was a better person and really loved my family, wouldn't I enjoy doing all these things for them? It was a shocking feeling, totally unreasonable and pretty absurd. Nobody likes doing chores when they are tired at the end of the day so why would that mean I didn't love my family enough? But there it was, that feeling, even though I thought it was ridiculous. I cried a little from the pain I felt, allowing myself to feel it then I did enough rounds of Tapping to clear it out.
I feel lighter and relaxed...I am clearing out that negative energy...that "standing wave" in my nervous system that is causing so much stress. I can feel it.
This is the song I was listening to, it's just a nice meditation song and a good length of time.
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I think that's a very profound breakthrough--the guilt. I think we've been taught to believe that loving and caring for your family means that you should do all that stuff with a cheerful outlook, and let's face it, that doesn't happen most of the time.
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